http://memoriter.net/flash/test.html
it's rather accurate. (:


oh, i only got home at 5 in the morning.
and strangely enough, my parents didn't make any noise.
woah.


met eileen, may fen and bryan for dinner at hongkong cafe at cineleisure.
walked around then sat outside cineleisure.
eileen left with her friends for homeclub.
may fen stayed with me.
bought drinks and supper for the guys then cabbed down to cj's house.
watched them play poker the entire night/ morning.
cabbed home.


och later.
omg, i'm scared, please. :/


hurhur, i need to pack my room now.
mom's annoying the hell out of me.
chickennnnn.

"If you spend too much time thinking about your past mistakes, how can you focus on moving forward? Today, you need to put the boxing gloves away -- because it's time for you to stop beating yourself up! No one remembers the things you did or didn't do, so why on earth should you? It's one thing to learn lessons from errors you've made, but it is quite another to continually punish yourself. This is a fresh day, full of possibility and promise. Don't waste it feeling regret."

why is it so trueeeee? :/
why, why, why.


You could be the one i'll always love.

i've a sudden urge to blog some emo quotes.
i don't know why, but i feel this tinge of insecurity taking over me. and it doesn't feel good at all.


Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation.
One more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever?
If so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days.
And none will outweight the one you wish you had back.


I've got to move on, and be who I am.


I started smiling, cause you were smiling.

Mmaybe it's just an act, maybe you still
do think of me often, in stealing moments,
or at night when you can't fall asleep.
wondering if, i was wondering.


Go ahead, tell me you'll leave again.
You'll just come back running holding your scarred heart in hand.
Its all the same.
And ill take you for who you are if you take me for everything.


I've seen nights without sleep, days without daylight.
These memories I keep, won't keep me warm at night.
The coldest part is the heart that we share.
It's breaking apart and you're not even here to say things will get better.


Maybe that's a blessing in disguise because I doubt anyone would believe what went on.
Thinking back on it now, I wish nothing but the best to you.
And despite everything we've been through, despite the heartache that followed every fight,
and the nights spent sleepless talking to each other under the moonlight -
I hope you'll still be able to mention me with a smile.


Unintended.

omg, omg.
vincent's like sooooo cute, please. heh. :DD


ladies night yesterday with eileen, jiajia, hui ying and may fen.
eileen got wasted and may fen sent her home in a cab.
so the night was left with the 3 of us.
i'm very sure we had a fucking good time. haha.


oh, there's this girl crying like some bitch outside zouk like she got raped or something.
but i doubt so. most probably only touched or something. and this childish guy friend of hers wanted to beat up the guy(s). like HELLO, do you even know where the fuck you are at?


wan zhen's sending me the photos we took on monday.
will upload as soon as i get everything.
till then. (:

OH YES, chong yi, wan zhen and i are not working anymore. HOHOHO. :DD

and so, friendster says, "Don't overspend today. Remember: in some cases, spending one cent is too much.
HOHOHO, i'm gonna make sure i don't even spend a single sent today. because it's ladies' night with eileen tomorrow. YAYYYYY. (:(:(:


so last wednesday, i went to starfish for an informal group interview for the shangri-la hotel banquet server job with wilson ong. bumped into wilson ong's colleague when he's smoking outside ngee ann city. sat around till wilson ong and his friend had to leave for work.
walked down to cineleisure alone to look for andrew who's working at some games shop. waited for darn long before lim jian came over.
lim jian and i went to fish and co for dinner. shared a seafood platter for two. he's being really nice. haha. peeled the prawns for me. but he said, "if i don't help you, you'll eat meh?" bugger ley, eeyer! :D we couldn't finish the food even though i was fucking hungry.
walked back to the place andrew's working to wait for him to close the shop. then the guys played an hour of game.
wanted to take a bus down to zouk, but in the end, we took a bad down. haha. the 3 of us had in total 2 jugs of bourbon coke and 4 flaming lamborghinis (it's 1-for-1.). went to both phuture and zouk to dance. andrew got super wasted. and he wanted to lie outside, so lim jian and i went back in ourselves. andrew gave me his 2 free drinks, and i had 2 tequila shots. went to phuture to dance. got to know this guy and met melvin. melvin bought me a flaming lamborghini. whee. haha. then after the party, melvin drove us to somewhere at rivervalley for supper. cabbed back to lim jian's after that. tried to sleep and all. but the annoying eee noise just didn't help at all. drank unboiled water and felt fucking uncomfortable after that. cabbed home in the morning. and i puked. motion sickness + bloated tummy = puke!


i can't remember what i did on thursday. but i think i stayed at home the entire day.


and friday, saturday and sunday was spent working.
fucking tiring and scary. ):
OMG.
i really have no idea if i still wanna continue working there.
but on a higher note, i've met a group of new friends that i can clique with. (:


weddings are really sweet! (:(:(:
i almost cried when the videos were played, when the couple walked in, when they're having their speech. it just touched me.
(for your infomation, i was working. haha.)


met up with my colleagues yesterday to collect our pay.
bus-ed back to town for dinner at nydc.
had a good laugh. haha. if you wanna know why, check the blog a few days later for the photos. (wan zhen's yet to send them to me.)
then it's mind's cafe with wan zhen and her friends.
train-ed home with her after that.


i can't wait for tomorrowwwww! (:
eileen, we'll have a good time.
don't think about it anymore


AND BITCH, I THINK YOU CAN TRY FUCKING HARDER TO BE NICER TO OUR DEAREST EILEEN.
YOU'RE BEING A TOTAL SHAME. EVEN HE SAID SO. HA.


Thanks for telling me you miss me. I miss you too.

i'm way to tired to blog.
after the weekends, maybe.


and i can't tie a knot with the cherry stalk using my tongue.
so annoying. eeyer. :/

will update after tomorrow's ladies night with eileen and her friends.
fucking tired now.
goodnight.

chicken that goes OINK, OINK!
HAHAHA. :DD


mom and dad are sick. food poisoning, maybe?


dragged my very lazy self out of bed at 11.30 a.m. when i was supposed to wake up at 11 a.m. got ready and all then train-ed down to novena to meet the ian, kk and nam.
we're supposed to meet at 1 p.m. but i was late by around 38 minutes. heh.
took a bus down to the bak kut teh place. and kk pointed out that the signboard outside the shop says, "BAR KU THE". HAHAHA. :DD it's like the third time i've been there and i didn't know.
we shared 2 bowls of bak kut teh and a plate of pig trotter. kk didn't drink much of the soup so i practically drank TWO bowls of soup. omg, i want moreeeee! :DD IT'S STILL SO FUCKING GOOD, PLEASE.
after lunch, we bus-ed down to chinatown for dessert. we had mango with pamelo and sago, carrot cake, black sesame paste and walnut paste. HOHOHO. yummyyyyy! (:
home sweet home after that. hola.


sentosa with eileen and wilson ong tomorrow/ later.
i'd better turn in early.
goodnight, world.


You cant undo somethings that's happened; you cant take back a word that's already been said out loud. You'll think about me and wish that you had been able to talk me out of this. You'll try to figure out what would have been the one right thing to say, to do. I guess I should tell you, Don't blame yourself; this isn't your fault, but that would be a lie. We both know that I didnt get here by myself.

i'm gonna put on like 758148612192kg! ):):):
bloody hell.

ohkay, i'll tell you why but you'd probably start laughing and say, "yea, you fucking deserve it." oh wells, maybe i do.

last night, i called the mcdonald's delivery at 11.34 p.m. after complaining to mom that i'm hungry. the food came at 12 a.m.
in other words, i had a fillet o fish burger, fries and coke at fucking 12 in the morning. at the time, jinyi's msg-ing me, so i told him that i'm having supper. and he's like, "you'd better not sleep after eating, if not, shou shou (skinny) also will become pang pang (fat)." (for your information, i always call him pang pang, so i insist he's just getting back at me.) so being the very good girl, like i always am, i didn't sleep until 3 plus 4 in the morning, hoping that i won't put on sooooo much weight from that fucking sinful meal.

today, i had fried bee hoon/ mee/ kway teow with fried fillet and egg for brunch. yes, everything's fried! ohmyfuck. then i had pepper lunch, again, for dinner. and i just cooked myself a delicious bowl of kimchi ramen with egg (maggie mee, of course. all i did was to dump everything in the bowl and in it went into the microwave, then DANG DANG! YUMMY!). but take a look at the time. fuck.

not forgetting, i've been snacking like my parents own the entire ntuc or something. :/


i should seriously start watching my diet and sleeping before 12 midnight. if not, i can really bang my head against the wall and die.
i'm living a really really unhealthy lifestyle this boring holiday. RAHHHHH. ):


in less than 12 hours' time, i'm seeing my loves for bak kut teh! (yes, i'm contridicting myself and yes, i'm still addicted.)
meeting lynette too! (:


aah, i feel sleepy already.
but no, i just ate, i can't sleep so soon.
oh no, oh no.


You give me feelings I simply adore.

pepper lunch with willy/ interview at home club with joey/ nydc with eileen/ drinking at home club with eileen.

that pretty much ended my friday with a curfew of 12 a.m (and me only returning home at 1 a.m. hoho.).

the fucking annoying EEEEE sound has been ringing in my ears since i stepped out of zouk and it's getting on my nerves. UGH.

(stupid facebook, having some problem. i wanna pet other pets lahhhhh. whines.)

so yesterday afternoon was spent recovering from the day before's drinking session. bus-ed down to tampines to meet eileen then we bus-ed down to far east for dinner.
went to get calamari from british take away, and that's where we saw james and his girlfriend. and james just had to say "I SAW YOU ON HEY GORGEOUS!" as he's walking towards us, passing like 83404749 people. i was so terribly embarrassed, so i hid behind a pillar so those people couldn't see me. talked for a while then eileen and i went to subway. wanted to eat the meatball, but they didn't have it anymore. so i didn't get anything from there.
after eating, eileen wanted wanted to shop. so our first station was this fashion, and it's also the last. because the rest of ophix was getting ready at the side and after we stepped out, they sang a birthday song like super loudly. wheeeee. so fun. then we sat around to rahrahhhhh. had a great time laughing and all.
ck and jay lloyd met us after ck ended work. walked over to the mcdonald's at shaw house. did stupid things (as usual) and laughed like crazy. left for zouk after ck changed.
zouk was like fucking packed, with army boys. i'm serious. every 5 guys, 3 of them are botak. omg. :/ and the queue was fucking long, but luckily we got in quite fast. however, the bouncer took quite some time to actually realise eileen is already legal and yesterday was her birthday. so after she stepped in, the bouncer wished her happy birthday. how nice, right? (by the way, zouk bouncers are like HOT, please. omg! :D)
so when i was getting my hand chopped (the stamp!), one of the bouncers recognised me and was like, "AREN'T YOU YOU YOU THE HEY GORGEOUS GIRL?" then i turned around, stunned then quickly denied. omg, omg, omg.
went to put our bags at the counter at the second level. saw darryl (eileen's friend). then we went phuture to drink. had 1 tequille shot, 1 vodka on the rock and 1 flaming lamborghini. ck and i treated eileen a drink. went to dance and all. eileen saw this guy that she thinks is cute. then i went to ask his friend for his name. edmund, it is. but eileen's like so embarrassed. i bet if it's not so dark, we'll be able to see how red she was. then went to drink another 2 tequille shots. went back to the dance floor. ck went outside leaving us on our own. after a while, eileen spotted another guy that's her type. then there's this guy that came way too near me, i told eileen, then we walked away.
went outside to find ck and he's like sitting alone at some corner with his head down. didn't disturb him because he looked almost dead. so we walked down to somewhere near the parking area and sat by the road. waited till around 2 a.m. then we went in again. and the bouncers were like HEY GORGEOUS, HEY GORGEOUS. so embarrassing. then one of them was like saying he wants my autograph and wants me to dance ballet for him. omg. and guess what, HE GAVE ME AND EILEEN THE FORMS FOR THE VIP CARD! (:(:(: YAYYYYY. fucking happy lah! second birthday present from me to her. :D
went back to phuture. was walking then a fight started. bottles, jugs, cups flying around. fucking scary. then eileen and i pushed our way back, while people pushed their way in to see what happened. singaporeans arh, really kaypo ley.
so eileen and i tried to go into the fucking packed dancefloor and ended up being surrounded by a group of guys. and there's this guy who's fucking weird. he's like singing to us. looked so retarded can.
then eileen saw edmund. and as we danced, they came closer, then his friend gave me edmund's number. she's so happy lah! third birthday present from me to her. :D
ck had to leave first because he's working today. and because we left our baggage tags with him, we've to go get it from him. but before we left the dancefloor, a guy asked for my number. i just punched my number without looking and left.
and everytime i walked pass the bouncers, they'd be like HEY GORGEOUS! then eileen and i were like smile smile smile. but i don't mind smiling at them, i mean they're like so darn fucking hot, please! heh. :D
went back to phuture to join edmund and friends. made new friends and all. yada yada yada.
the guys went out to smoke, then two of us were like dancing with each other when we saw that both the guy that came to near to me and the one that sang to us were just behind us. so we left not long after that.
went to collect our bags then met the guys outside for supper.
i swear they're super funny! haha.

eileen and i waited till 6. then when we wanted to cab, there's no cabs. zzz.
got a cab at like 6.47 a.m. and eileen got hers just in time before the peak hour surcharge.
reached home, bathed, then slept all the way till 1 plus 2 in the afternoon.


i had a great time yesterday.
i'm sure eileen enjoyed her 18th birthday!
once again, happy legal 18, darling! (:


for photos, click HERE.


so, i got my results back.
not very happy with it. but it's guess it's that bad.
got gpa of 3.1.
oh wells..
BUT!
ian and nam promised me bak kut teh on monday to cheer me up a little.
so YAY! something to look forward to. (:

hello, the purple lights photos are up.
click on the link there! -points at the purple lights link under photos-


it's ladies night later with eileen! (:

flaming lamborghini + (pronounced as) yaygen bomb + half cup of graveyard = FUCKING HIGH!
:DD

met joey and wilson at ikea then we cabbed down to town for dinch at hongkong cafe at cineleisure. shopping around town after 28319578357 months of not stepping in. i wanted this red minidress from mango, but the smallest size is like s, and it's fucking loose for me. so in the end, i didn't get a single shit. willy wanted to get the blue skinnies from mango. HAHA. but he didn't dare to try, so joey and i told him that topman's also selling the same thing. however, he insisted that he wants the ladies' cutting. HAHAHA. and obviously, he didn't get his skinnies, but he got a green belt instead. (oh, i forgot to say wilson ong's rich recently. HOHO. :D)
ate fried mars bars and now, i'm craving for fried calamari and bak kut teh. TEEHEEHEE.
trained down to homeclub where i tried all those drinks and got myself fucking high. :DD

wilson ong's darn unlucky today.
he lost his keys, the cab we took didn't have the machine which allows us to pay by nets and he didn't have cash on him, the atm machine was not in order, he forgot to ask for the receipt (which means he can't claim), joey didn't answer his phone, so wilson ong had to call his house.
POOR WILSON ONG.

ohkay, so joey and i are going for interview at homeclub this friday.
hopefully, i get the job. at least i can earn some extra pocket money.
HOLA. (:

facebook, facebook, facebook. :D


so tomorrow will be spent visiting ikea to get computer chair, hk cafe, shopping, chilling, blahblahblah with willy and joey. i hope eileen will join us after school.
at least i'm gonna get my ass out of the house and not waste my precious holidays away.

HOHO, which concludes that i definitely need a job.


AAHHHHH!
stop msg-ing/ im-ing/ calling me to tell me you saw me on teevee.
i know, i know, i know, and i'm terribly embarrassed.
omg.


If today was perfect, there would be no need for tomorrow.

OMF, 100 more pages to go.
maybe i'm not gonna sleep tonight.
hola.





Why don't we hit the rewind button and pause at our favourite part?

ftt tomorrow.
so screwed. :/

ON A HIGHER NOTE, HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 2 IS ON TEEVEE LATERRRRR!
YAYYYYY. (:


I hate Hellos, because Goodbyes will catch up soon after.

why why love the whole afternoon before meeting eileen and willy at novena for bak kut teh. train-ed to town to meet jay lloyd. walked around aimlessly then finally found some random place in paragon to sit down while waiting for ck to finish work (movie was cancelled but non of us was told). walked to somerset mrt to meet lance then walked over to purple lights to drink. ck and jay lloyd left after rahrahhhhh-ing for a while. willy, lance, eileen and i played games and we all got fucking high. especially willy. fucking funny! HAHAHA. :DD
yada yada yada.
cabbed home with lance at 3 in the morning. slept at 5 a.m after watching a bit of why why love.

woke up at 4 p.m.
and i'm having a hangover.
fuck, fuck, fuck. :/


Ha, Who Am I Kidding?

Never explain yourself to anyone.
Because the person who likes you, doesn't need it,
and the person who dislikes you, won't believe it.


And I chose not to explain to you.

I NEED A FREAKING JOB!

OMG, HE'S FUCKING HOT! :DD

hello there,
do you know you misunderstood me?
but you know what? it doesn't matter anymore.


don't tell me i meant something to you,
because i don't mean anything to you anymore.

I HAD BAK KUT TEH FOR BRUNCH!
XINYI'S A FUCKING HAPPY GIRL NOW!
IT'S SOOOOO YUMMYYYYY!
I'M GONNA GO BACK FOR MORE SOME DAY SOON, I SWEAR!
WHEEEEE! (:(:(:


now, i'm comtemplating if i should go phuture later.
should i, or should i not?
hmm..

i feel like taking a nap first though.
alright, think about it again later.


and for a few moments,
i ACTUALLY felt like i meant
something to someone..

bak kut teh with lee yujia tomorrow.
OMG, I CAN'T WAIT! :DD


i'm hungry, again. :/
shall go munch on the donuts mom bought from donut factory today.
heh heh heh. :D

i'm definitely growing sideway.
in other words, fat. ):
BUT! i'm not complaining anymore (or at least not to ian).
because food makes me fucking happy! HEH. (:

i'm starting to believe in this.

"This could be an emotional day, but it is not one in which you won't be able to control your emotions. So remember that when you feel your temper rising, your heart bruising, or an inappropriate giggle bubbling up inside of you. You can stop things from getting uncomfortable by simply taking a step back, letting yourself breathe, and taking your pulse -- both literally and figuratively. Just because you are feeling some confusing thoughts does not mean you should be afraid of your emotions."

oh you complicated world.

"Not every romance can start off as a sizzling affair, so don't get discouraged if you and someone else are experiencing a slow burn instead of a white hot and intense heat. It's a good sign -- it says this thing between the two of you is more about going the distance than it is about drama. Every time your heart connects with someone else, it's a different experience and should be respected as such. Do not compare this to anything you have ever experienced before."

met shi jie yesterday after spending my entire afternoon watching devil beside you.
had long john silver for dinch then train-ed down to pasir ris to meet joel and justin.
train-ed down to tampines to meet ele then train-ed down to tiong bahru.
sat outside tiong bahru shopping mall and drank.
finlandia and peach vodka with green tea sucks big time.
bus-ed down to phuture.
yada yada yada.
reached home at around 5.20 a.m. after having supper.
bathed and played my current addiction, solitaire, while waiting for my hair to dry.
slept at 6.15 a.m. and woke up at 3 plus this afternoon.
met jinyi at his place and we cabbed down to marina square to meet my parents for 881.
i love the movie. go watch it! it's definitely worth the money.
had kenny rogers for dinner.
walked around with jinyi then he sent me back.


i love you.